there are days i find no reason to smile

there are days i find no reason to smile.
today it is one of them.
on such days i stare at your picture long
then i find a single one.

i simply love the way you answer

i simply love the way you answer
none of my questions lately.
thank you for sparing me the agony
of thinking up new ones sweetie.

all multitaskers be damned

all multitaskers be damned
your notion of time is askew,
you jump from fire to flame
singing your soles anew.

do you not know?
maybe you simply don't care

that in every each calendar square
there are (whole) lifetimes to be had,
to be lived se-ri-al-ly,
to be che-rished equally.

slow down.
kiss someone (twice) for once
you f*cks.




all multitaskers be damned
~noxalio~

darling

darling,

you were here when
my mind was not

it is now here
and you are not.

we should try
to coordinate

better.





darling
~noxalio~

Rire fait du bien à notre santé

C’est prouvé scientifiquement :
le rire a une véritable valeur thérapeutique.
En effet, innombrables
sont ses bienfaits.

Alors, rions ! Rions jusqu’aux oreilles,
rions aux éclats, rions de bon cœur
car c’est bon pour notre corps,
c’est bon pour la beauté !

(Celle-ci, c’est une reproduction
sans permis - sorry).

is there an essential me

is there an essential me
or am i just what i reflect?

am i the dawn as well the night
so too the shifting light?
when snow is here am i the white
also the amber in candles’ light?

am i wax or wick or bone,
the resonances in love’s song?
am i melody and chorus,
virgo, scorpio, leo, taurus?

am i essentially star
or am i simply planet?




is there an essential me
~noxalio~

sweetie, every time you say nothing

sweetie, every time you say nothing
i know exactly what you mean.
today i know so much more than yesterday
and by week's end i should know everything.

la méditation d'aujourd'hui

should i compress time
or fold space
it's unclear today
which is best.

meet me today once again

meet me today once again,
by the rock, by the river’s edge.
i shall come alone this time, my love,
you will know it when i am there
and i, i shall recognize you.




meet me today once again
~noxalio~

i only f*ck the willing

i only f*ck the willing;
the ones who are not
i let depart quietly
upon their very own will,
willingly.

invariably some return
and then i do f*ck them
too willingly, as such
killing their bondage lust
but so bounded then
eternally by my realm.

so what the f*ck
is the difference then?
simple perspective? or more
- a temporal slide of hand?
you tell me sage, tell me,
go ahead if you can!




i only f*ck the willing
~noxalio~

to some, time is bounded

to some, time is bounded
to others it is not
and space is still as my love is
- endless and profound.

let me tell you so you can sleep
i met her when it was now
and i have loved her now ever,
i shall still when it is not;

unlike you who i have loved
since precisely when it was still
and i shall do so willingly (or not)
till time then freshly sleeps.

sleep now my love, sleep well,
when I do return once again
we shall sing and dance and perspire
together still as ever still.




to some, time is bounded
~noxalio~

inventory

my love is in trouble
i do not know what to do.

my despair is fine,
thank you.

morning arrived swiftly

morning arrived swiftly
extinguishing stars unprepared
(words were halved, others quartered)
as well dreams of urgent possibility.

so too perished nightmare swarms
some standard, all dreary,
each crammed with much strife
and the obligatory misery.



morning arrived swiftly
~noxalio~

i curse the day i

i curse the day i
met you; this is
a sentiment i never
had, until the day
i held you last;
but today, i curse
that very day
instead.




i curse the day i
~noxalio~

i interpret your silence

i interpret your silence
this way:

(.......................
........................
........................
........................)

and when i'm done

my mind races
in the wrong direction

always as my heart

almost

stops.






i interpret your silence
~noxalio~

accounting principle #1

sleeping is a luxury
i can ill afford
as i think of you my love.

often i hear "he tries too hard"

often i hear "he tries too hard"
and i think to myself "who comes up
with this bullshit?", then i chuckle
and go on trying.

what else can i do,
forget about you?



often i hear "he tries too hard"
~noxalio~

and who are you

and who are you
to give her advice

on when to arch,
how hard to thrust,

if to persist,
whether or not
to resist?

she is versed
you know
at the dance.

for once
lay still,
let her lead,

when she exhales,
breathe,

you should know this by now
for she has given you
her word,

you should not go unfulfilled.





and who are you
~noxalio~

these days it seems

these days it seems
there's simply no time
to stop thinking of you

but now i shall try
for only fifteen.

it is noon, i am hungry,
i have not eaten all week.






these days it seems
~noxalio~

nineteen-ten-o'nine

today you smiled my way,
tonight i smile
with you.

unsound

piercing silence
killed me today
my love.

sound advice

when words fail
you
hum.

surprise

surprise,
she's off the menu for good.

no,
you can't have her anymore.

but may i draw you attention
to our specialty tonight

rump roast,

delicately prepared
with rosemary and sage,

juicy, tender cuts,

from any number of cows
you so brazenly f*cked

while she tended
to you and your f*cking heirs.


your meal is on the house
this time.




surprise
~noxalio~

D F T S I L U

a tiff

clarity
and doubt
barter today.

visitant

last night
you came
-- twice.

fill in the blanks

"The music begins
And the titles fade in
Starring you and me
The hero is struggling to say
..."

complete the lines for a prize
and if you guess the album title
you may even get a surprise

and don't forget
googling is cheating

so try not to do it
please.

i was busy

i was busy
not thinking of you today,

now
i am tired.




i was busy
~noxalio~

let me ask you

let me ask you,

how am I to dream of you
now that I don’t sleep

anymore?




let me ask you
~noxalio~

coral and blush

coral and blush,
fuchsia and flush,
pink, rouge,
rose and crimson;
plus apricot
and maybe peach;
oh, salmon too
i suppose.

did i miss many,
any you adore?
you will tell me, no?
mon trésor.





coral and blush
~noxalio~

if irony was just

if irony was just
and glee a bore
from ashes unspun
to our spark
for you my breeze
a constant would smolder
still my love.





if irony was just
~noxalio~

... and if your name was null

... and if your name was null
i would write nothing endlessly.




... and if your name was null
~noxalio~

if silence was substitute for i love you

if silence was substitute for i love you
how quiet my mind would be today.





if silence was substitute for i love you
~noxalio~

did you think

did you think
you could kiss me
and simply fade away?

don't you know
your taste lingers,
that your touches stay?

now i shall kiss you
every hour
again today,

and thus we shall perish
each time
we pull away.






did you think
~noxalio~

soaked in transit

rain here
today
not you.

warning

warning
!

although
patience
is
deemed
a
virtue
it
can
equally
be
a
vice
.


be
wary
,
addiction
can
be
terminal
to
your
soul
.







warning
~noxalio~

did you know

did you know
that each time i think of you
i walk in seven perfect circles?

today i am dizzy.





did you know
~noxalio~

last night

last night
i did not sleep
without you

as i did not
sleep with you
the one before;

and tonight
i shall have no rest
i'm afraid.

still,
i continue
to dream.







last night
~noxalio~

ring, ring.

ring, ring.

hello?

hello; guess who?
-- it's me!

oh hi! i knew
it was you
before it rang.

you did?

with you
i always do
-- my love.





ring, ring.
~noxalio~

what do you see, i asked

what do you see, i asked
with a lot of hesitation.
a kind man, he said
with none in his voice.

that was last week
when i still had some zeal;
he was kind and now he's dead,
reads the headline today.




what do you see, i asked
~noxalio~

tonight i shall look

tonight i shall look
where i have not
looked before;

but before i do
i give you my daggers
for safekeeping;

for when i do look
and i see
that which i fear i will

i am affraid
i shall only think of one use
for any one of them

for they are each
perfectly suited
for the job.

i hope to return
for them
in the morning.





tonight i shall look
~noxalio~

this morning i promise

this morning i promise
i shall not dream of you tonight
but by nightfall this might well
turn into a lie
-- i promise.





this morning i promise
~noxalio~

i used to cry for me

i used to cry for me
for i knew not where you were,
now i cry for you
for i know just where you are.



i used to cry for me
~noxalio~

this is my promise to you

this is my promise to you --
never shall i claim you as mine
for you alone can give your "self" so
(that, your dearest possession, you)

and as you give to me freely hence
though i shall hold you as mine
still you shall ever stand your own
till the end even so dearly mine;

now i freely give you my "self"
(this my own dearest possession, me)
to be yours hence and yours always
while at once so to be mine.

i should like you as mine, freely,
as i shall be yours for so much less
from now till forever or till whence
our twin souls' appeals are none.





this is my promise to you --
~ noxalio ~